I Am Sorry For What I Am

Kill me all at once please,
I cannot die every moment.
I am sorry for all I did,
And today, I really repent.

Forgive me for my silence,
For I did not shout aloud.
When I did something good,
And did not get any applaud.

I beg you all for pardon,
As I have been so very silly.
To have put in my heart and soul,
To do everything for everybody.

I am sorry that I did not complain,
When I was in pain and sorrow,
So foolishly I believed that,
I’d be valued and loved tomorrow.

I have been hurt and chided,
Everytime I fought for my right.
So at last I learned to suppress,
My dreams, desires and delight.

Valued and cared for their joy,
For my joy, I searched in theirs.
I cried in solitude when it pained
Because for my tears, who cares?

I am no God, just a simple human,
With a heart and flesh like you all.
Then why can’t I be one among you?
Why am I worthless and small?

Flying On The Wings Of Poetry (02.03.2005)

Imagine the Earth was not round but square,
Either day or night, but not both anywhere.
What if money grew on trees?
And men caught fruits from trees?
Kids running large businesses,
Elders at home making mess.
Instead of schools, principals and tutors,
Education given all the time on computers.
No buses or taxis but helicopters and planes,
To lift our heavy luggage, there were mini cranes.
Instruments that could read neighbors’ mind,
So that none could think anything of nasty kind.
People owned vehicles that would travel faster than light,
Then no time wasted in tickets and flights.
Couples went to moon for their honeymoon,
And ate in diamond plates with golden spoon.
Best holiday resorts were on Jupiter and Neptune,
Where cats and dogs sang beautiful tunes.
No war, no treaties,
Only peace and parties.
In this world politics had no place,
For that chair, no mad rush or race.
If such world ever comes into being,
New mankind would be worth seeing.
All this is nothing but just my fantasy,
I was trying to fly on the wings of poetry.

God Loves Me (23.10.2005)

One day I met God and I cried,
“All my life You gave me only pain.
You did not make me look good,
Nor atleast give me intelligent brain.

You did not gift me any art,
Which could earn me praise.
You never granted any of my wishes,
Though I prayed to You in so many ways.

Your angels stole from my life,
The man who was my guiding star.
I began to feel so helpless that,
My mind and heart were at war.

Why did You give me few friends,
When all others were given so many?
All shared their love with someone.
But You gave me nobody..!!”

God listened to all my woes,
With patience and gentle smile.
And when finally I became silent,
He stared at me lovingly for a while.

“My child!”, He began softly,
On my head placing His hand,
“You are one of those very few,
Who are blessed by me on this land.”

“By giving you so much pain,
I taught you the power of healing.
And by not giving you much intelligence,
I made you simple and not cunning.

I gave you the art of discovering,
In yourself the shining spark.
Your wishes were left unheard so that,
You achieve them by your hardwork.

The guiding star of your life,
Was a man who was a gem at heart.
I brought him to my paradise,
So you learn to carve your own path.

The few friends that are gifted to you,
Are the most loved angels of heaven,
They love you, care for you, and,
Will always be there when you need them.

I gave you a heart that feels,
Only the love that is pure and true.
I’ll give your love not just to anybody,
But someone who really deserves you.”

Thus saying, God held me,
In His warm embrace for sometime.
He made me feel His love and,
Gave me happiness for lifetime.

The Lost World (04.12.2005)

The world is changing,so are its people
Now they are showing instincts of animals.
All that people want is enjoyment and fun,
No one in this world cares for anyone.

Children mature before their right age,
And they want to be free,out of their cage.
Guidance given by elders is called “lecture”,
And the concern showed by them is “torture”.

Parents now believe that their son and daughter,
Know what’s good and bad,so they do not bother.
They don’t check what their kid does whole day,
They are too busy to guide their own child’s way.

The senses of the youngsters are growing numb,
Their deeds and words leave people dumb.
These nocturnes party and enjoy at night,
Disturbing normal people,they its their right.

Girls and boys are seen together everywhere,
What they talk,what they do,nobody cares.
Situations arise when their hearts control their minds,
Later they regret and wish if only they could rewind.

People are judged by their wealth and possessions,
Money is now considered man’s success and destination.
False image is presented to create good impression,
Everybody has begun to live in a world of illusion.

World is now more like a big factory,
Where humans act as its machinery.
Although they live and work together,
Yet there are no feelings for each other.

Humans are dividing into parties and groups,
Like animals move in herds and savages in troupes.
Destruction and commotion rule over our lives.
People are now more cunning than wise.

I wish to change this world once more,
I want to heal the hearts that are sore.
My prayers will be answered if and only,
I could teach this world to live peacefully.

Like charity,peace too begins at home,
So begin now and never think you are alone.
Love is easy to spread as everybody needs it,
And once they experience it,they’ll get used to it.

Love can heal deepest wounds,teach toughest lessons,
Provided the feeling is true and heart is concerned.
So lets not wait for others to get up and initiate,
And begin just now,before its too late.